With the death of my baby girl comes immense pain that paralyzes every aspect of my life. Nothing can change what has happened nor can anything bring her back. My life has become that of stagnation! I have lost so much zest for everything in my world of existence, I strive to stay afloat for my two surviving sons and my grandson, as well as the people who are in my life. How does one learn to live, to flourish, to have dreams and a future when they feel like so much of that has been taken away? Anyone that goes through some kind of tragedy holds on to memories and struggles to find hope. Every individual handles their grief and pain in different ways. I have learned a golden rule in all of this, no one needs the exact same thing to carry on and that when it comes to death of someone you love there are no rules in how one chooses to try to move forward!
I cannot speak for anyone else but myself when i say for me the only thing that may help me to begin to survival is some answers. I have so many questions about my daughters death and all the events that transpired that night. I need answers, being a logical person i understand that some answers are not in my control. I have also learned that there is no control in life, no guarantees! I personally know for my own well being that getting what answers i can is the only way to help with that closure, filling the voids i have about that night.
I know that her death could have been avoided. I know that the act that ended her life was preventable. I know that many could have stopped the individual from driving that night after drinking, and no one did. I know that the individual was too young to purchase the alcohol on his own and had to have gotten it from someone. I am not pointing fingers at anyone specific, but i want answers!!! I deserve answers! The facts are that every bit of documented evidence from that night are in black and white. I want to heal, i want all the families involved to heal, but no one can truly do that without the truth.
A reward has been offered in an effort to have someone step forward to answer some of these questions, to help at the very least right a little of the wrong. The objective is to stop this from happening to someone else! Everyone involved is being hurt both families lost someone precious to them, no one wins. But finding the contributors to the event can help for people to accept their accountability for their actions.
With this reward that has been offered, I have been accused of horrible things such as trying to make money off of my daughters death, that idea is not only sick, and unwarranted it is just plain ignorant!!! How is it I can gain in a monetary way? I have lost so much, had to sell and move away from the house that held so many memories that i could not bare to live with on a daily basis. I have had to quit two jobs in the past ten months because my emotional, and physical state is so destroyed. Our family has started a scholarship in our daughters memory this is capitalizing on my daughters death, How is that? No amount of money could ever help to heal our family, but justice can! I just want someone to do the right thing and take responsibility for the carnage they have facilitated in leaving for everyone that loved Morgan. I just want to learn to live again, in a world that i will never know as normal.
My father and step-mother were killed by a drunk driver seven years prior to my daughter being killed. I did nothing proactive, back than to right the wrong, Yes I spoke at SADD and other events to try and help of awareness, but never tried to find the answers to why it happened. So in an eight year span another member of my family is killed by a drunk driver, how many family members do I have to lose before I stand up for myself and other families to make someone accountable. Maybe than people will realize there are consequences to their actions for taking a life in this manner.
Say what you will about how I go about justice! I will not stand by and let another one of my loved ones be taken away from me from drinking and driving. I will not stand by and let anyones family member die in vain!